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  • no control

    i miss those nights when we just stay up and talk.
    take a nap at 5 or 6 in the morning...
    then talk again before work.

    i have told myself several times that ill be ok.
    as long as you are.
    but i was wrong.

    i still miss you.


    Meeting you was fate,
    becoming your friend was a choice,
    but falling in love with you...
    .... I had no control over.

Tuesday, 22 April 2008

  • my PSEUDO GIRLFRIEND part 4: FUCK!!! i FORGOT....

    FIRST off... SORRY for not UPDATING you guys Yesterday... i wanted to but i was tired and very lazy... 'sides... no one reads this but J-Ho anyways HAHAHHAHA


    ok so it was my 2nd day of work... with a SHAVED head. and maaaaaaaaannn was it cold that morning HAHAHHAA.


    so i get to the Doors and i see a familiar face. it was Booshi-san. i guess she's gonna work in the mornings now...
    we exchanged a few words... but the older looking lady was getting pissed i think... so i left.... besides... i was a lil late HAHAHHA FUCK!!!

    Sunday was like any other SUNDAY at TRENDY...
    it me in the morning shift... and then ellis at night shift.

    anywho so i go in the office and pick up our cash bag...
    and everyone that saw me was SHOCKED to the MAX...
    everyone was like was STARING... a lot more than yesterday...
    the managers saw me for the first time.
    they didnt notice me yesterday because i didnt open the store... and i didnt go in the office... but today they were like... whoah! or so why did you decide to cut your hair?

    my response is usually or always "im getting tired of fixing up my long hair" or "its been hot lately... but now its really cold... so i messed up hahahah"


    so i go ahead and open up my store. then i clean up the place a bit and wait up to kill time. until ELLIS gets there...

    FAST FORWARD   |> |>

    a couple hours get there and ELLIS and i got bored... it was almost time for my lunch anyway... so i could careless...

    a few minutes later... SAKI-chan TRIES to scare me. haha it didnt work. she tells me that she's visiting and that she's with her mommy at MITSUWA.
    she also asked about the hair. haha. she told me to say hi to her mom. and then she stayed with me until the start of break. she asked me if Taiyaki-san is working... i said no... because i dont think she'll be coming in until 3 or 4.

    i take my BREAK. and saki-chan and i head outside.
    i let saki-chan go first while i hide behind a pillar to take a peek at her...
    i stuck my head out so that Taiyaki-san can see me. she had a BIG surprised expression on her face.

    Taiyaki-san: "OMG!!! YOUR HAIR!!!"
    me: "yeh i decided to cut it"
    Taiyaki-san: "what happened? why?"
    me: "i dunno im just tired of my hair i guess"
    Taiyaki-san: "i see..."
    me: "yeh its cold"
    BOTH laugh hahah
    Taiyaki-san: "its ok it looks good" *thumbs up*
    me: "thank you.. but its weird hahah"
    Taiyaki-san: "no... you look cute"
    me: (omg.... what did she say?)... *stuttering* H-h-h-uh?
    Taiyaki-san: "YOU LOOK CUTE"
    me: *hella smiling & probably blushing & still stuttering* T-T-T-T-thank Y-Y-you...
    Taiyaki-san: *smiles*

    by then i look at Saki-chan... she smiled too haha...
    i was scared... then Saki-chan leaves to go look for her mom.

    me: "so i hear you work at a restaurant now."
    Taiyaki-san: "yeh..."
    me: "so are you quiting this job?"
    Taiyaki-san: "no. im not"
    me: (in my head WOOHOO!!!!!)

    we talk some more and basically confirm everything that Booshi-san told me the other day. she's still gonna keep this job... but instead of saturdays AND sundays... it will only be SUNDAYS... because the restaurant needs her to work on saturdays.... FUCK!

    i say my minni-good-bye because i still gotta eat adn head back... i then tell her that ill be back after my shift. i go inside and eat some food. saki-chan comes in and calls me a LONER haha... i think she thought i was being mean to her... but yeh i wasnt... ごめんなさいさきちゃん

    FAST FORWARD |> |>

    i get off work and i head outside.
    Taiyaki-san: "hiii!"
    me: "hi!"
    Taiyaki-san: "so are you off now?"
    me: "yeh im off"
    Taiyaki-san: "OoooOooo that necklace is cute"
    me: "thank you"
    Taiyaki-san: "are you gonna leave now???"
    me: "no not yet... oh yeh can i get two taiyaki please?"
    Taiyaki-san: "yes"
    me: "ok well...ummm you can help the other customers first ill be back ill just put my stuff in the car"
    Taiyaki-san: "ok"
    *i come back and we talk for a lil bit because my taiyaki is still getting cooked...i wanted to ask her on a date or dinner or something hahah... but... i dont know if shes interested... so i played it safe... i think.


    Taiyaki-san: "ok here you go"
    me: "thank you"
    Taiyaki-san: *hands me another bag*
    me: "umm... whats this?"
    Taiyaki-san: "this one is extra for you."
    me: "really!?!?!?"
    Taiyaki-san: "yes"
    me: "are you sure???????"
    Taiyaki-san: "yes its ok."
    me: "really?"
    Taiyaki-san: "Hmm-hm."
    me: "thank you!!!"

    i was really happy and we said our good-byes and stuff... and i thanked her one last time for the extra taiyaki. and i headed to my car. some DOUChEBAG decided to park really close to my car... so i couldnt get it... i had to SQUEEZE myself in... it pissed me off... because the DOUCHE was still in his car... watching me SQUEEZE in my car... and he didnt even wave or anything saying that he was sorry... i got NOTHING... FUCKING DOUCHE BAG...

    so i FINALLY get in my car... i look at the douche and i said FUCK IT... i dont give a shit anymore... i then thought about Taiyaki-san and how i wouldnt see her until next sunday... how sad. but for some ODD reason i couldnt stop smiling... i kept thinking about the extra taiyaki hahhahah....

    and then... IT.. HAPPENED... O...M...G...
    i was sooo shocked... i didnt know what to do....

    me: "FUCK!!!....I FORGOT TO PAY FOR THIS!"

    without hitting the douche bag's car i opened my car door quickly adn wiggled out as fast as i could... and ran back to Taiyaki-san...

    me: "umm... (insert Taiyaki-san's REAL NAME here)..."
    Taiyaki-san: "yes?"
    me: "OMG i forgot to PAY! here!"
    i handed my money
    Taiyaki-san: "No its ok..."
    *shakes her hands as if she dont want the money"
    Taiyaki-san: "its for you."
    me: "no, no... at least let me pay for the two that i wanted to buy."
    Taiyaki-san: "NO ITS OK...Daijoubu Daijoubu"
    me: "are you sure? really?"
    Taiyaki-san: "YES... its ok...just next time ok?"
    *she smiles, winks, & points out finger like it was a gun*
    me: "really... thank you"

    i start to smile again... and start heading back to my car...
    i wasnt angry at the douche anymore... i just SQUEEZED in my car...
    closed my door... started my engine... FLICKED OFF THE DOUCHEBAG....
    and drove on home.

Monday, 21 April 2008

  • my PSEUDO GIRLFRIEND part 3: the MISCALCULATION...

    this will be a short one...i think hahah because im really tired and i wanna sleep now.

    i came by work all tired... but its all good.
    i saw the morning やきいも = YAKI IMO (sweet potatoe) workers today. they had someone new... its always this one lady... BUT her co-worker is NEW. so i was happy... because they always need help when they sell Yaki Imo or tayaki anyway haha.

    i could care A LOT less... because i only care for the night crew... they are A LOT nicer :]

    ON A SIDE NOTE:
    so i get inside and everyone was staring at me... looking all SURPRISED hahahaha
    btu i didnt care... (if you see me... you'll know) HAHHAAH

    anywho later on... my co-worker Kaoru-chan gets her 30 min. break around 230ish to 300ish...

    when she came back she tells me that  Taiyaki-san was not outside. i was like dont worry... she's prolly running a lil late because i mean she IS coming from CARLSBAD. so i wasnt worried.

    i was getting off at 5 and i was excited that there were only 2 hours left.

    ELLIS, my other co-worker gets his lunch on his 30min. break... when he came back... he said and i QUOTE "DUDE, they got another COW outside. Taiyaki-san is not outside."

    i was like WTF???

    this time I WAS WORRIED. or just EXTREMELY curious in why she's not at work today... or YET.

    THOUGHTS that were running through my head:
    ~maybe she left this job.
    ~maybe this other CHICK outside is the one that replaced her.
    ~FUCK!!!
    ~dammit Ellis said the NEW PM chick is a COW
    ~ELLIS said that there are two ugly chicks now... morning and night time
    ~SHITTTT!!!!
    ~maybe she just got some stuff to do
    ~maybe she got another job
    ~maybe she GOT fired.
    ~maybe.... maybe.... maybe...
    ~FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!


    the last 30mins of work came up... it was 430... i tried NOT to think of the possibilities... i mean maybe ELLIS is just fucking around.


    so then i GET OFF WORK...
    i get my stuff ready and head to the front of MITSUWA.
    i usually can see Taiyaki-san's CO-worker first... because Taiyaki-san is always behind this pillar thing... and he co-worker is by the window so yeh...

    i SEE her co-worker... lets call her:　押しさん　"Booshi" (means HAT in japanese).
    she always wears a hat.... sooo Booshi-san. anyway boshi-san talks to me a lil bit and asks me how i was doing... i talked to her....
    then i gather up a few ounces of COURAGE and a sprinkle of ANGRY THOUGHTS to finally ask Booshi-san... the questioned i wanted answered. but she beat me in... and asked me a question.

    Booshi-san: "WOW! new haircut? when did you get that?"
    ME: "just recently"
    Booshi-san: "OoOooooo KAWAII"
    ME: "thank you......umm... where's (insert Taiyaki-san's REAL NAME here) today?"
    Booshi-san: "oooohhh you know (insert Taiyaki-san's REAL NAME here)??? i mean her name?"
    ME: "yes. where is she now?"
    Booshi-san: "oh well yeh (insert Taiyaki-san's REAL NAME here) she works at a restaurant now too...so she's really busy"
    ME: ((in my head WTF??? REALLY??????? CRAPPPPP!!!)) "i see... so in oceanside?"
    Booshi-san: "no in CARLSBAD"
    ME: "hmm... well can i get 3 taiyaki please"
    Booshi-san: "yes sure here... yeh... she might come tomorrow though."
    ME: "i see...well ok then...have a great night"
    Booshi-san: "yes you too."


    AND THAT IS IT. she wasnt at work. she works at ANOTHER PLACE. she STILL has THIS job... but now she has TWO JOBS... so balancing time is a MUST... in a way... for BOTH of us.

    so i guess i didnt calculate her getting another job... SUCKS BALLS.

    in a way its kind of exciting... because now i can speed up my pace a lil bit... maybe ill ask her out to eat sometime. who knows.

    but it all depends if she comes in to work.... TOMORROW.